• Blessed Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ,

    I come before You with a thankful heart for the grace and mercy You pour upon me each day. Every breath is a testimony to Your goodness. Every beat of my heart bears witness to Your creative power—that You set me in motion, entered my life, and began changing me from the person I once was into the disciple You called me to become.

    I did not know You. I knew about You.

    I went to church and heard the stories. I knew that my grandparents knew You, and I knew that my mother knew You. But I did not truly know You for myself.

    For a time, You allowed me to remain there, but Your love would not leave me there forever.

    You awakened me from my selfish and troublesome dream. Your love broke through the pretense that filled my life. I thought I could circle around You and Your people like a satellite, staying close enough to feel the warmth without surrendering to its source. I believed I could remain on the fringes of Your love and mercy.

    But You awakened me and shook my little world.

    You cleared away the fog that hung before my eyes and allowed me to see reality for the first time. You placed Your hand upon my life and breathed Your life into my heart. I could never be the same again. Now each day has purpose and meaning—all because of You.

    I look upon my past with measured regret that I did not open my heart to You sooner. Yet I know that You are making all things new within me. The old weights that have hung from my shoulders for so long, You are teaching me to place into Your hands. You are my great burden-bearer and Friend.

    And now, Lord, because You have opened my eyes, I see those around me who know about You but do not yet know You. My heart aches for them because I recognize that place. I remember what it was to hear Your name and remain at a distance.

    What I needed then is what we need now: a visitation of Your presence.

    The Church in Iceland knows who You are. Many have been baptized and confirmed. They have heard the stories and recognize Your name. Yet there is so much more of You to encounter. There is so much more life to be discovered in Your presence.

    The love that would not leave me on the fringes—let that love move through Iceland.

    Ignite within me, and within Your people, a new passion for You. Give us a hunger for Your Word. Awaken in us a longing for Your presence that cannot be satisfied by custom alone.

    Reveal the private territories of our hearts that we have withheld from You. Expose the quiet agreements we have made with ourselves and with our culture—those arrangements that allow us to speak about You without truly surrendering to You.

    Break through our formality and shyness. Meet us tenderly within the guardedness left by the misuse of faith and authority. Do not allow those wounds to keep us forever at a distance from You. Show us again who You truly are.

    Tear down every hindrance that keeps us from taking consequential steps toward You. Give us courage to engage with You honestly and to allow You to make sweeping changes within our lives.

    I pray against the enemy of our hearts who seeks to intimidate us and frustrate Your purposes. Holy Spirit, come like a mighty river. Unearth what has kept us bound and carry away what has held us down. Teach us to leave the safety of the shore and set out into the deep with You.

    Expose every false support through which we imagine that we can live without You. Teach us to lean into Your strength and receive the abundant life You offer.

    O Lover of our souls and Giver of all that we need, awaken us.

    With the eagerness of little children, let us run after You. Let us reach for You without embarrassment and embrace You with our whole hearts.

    You would not leave me on the fringes, Lord.

    Do not leave us there.

    Visit us again—not so that we may merely speak more about You, but so that we may truly know You.

    Amen.

  • A Prayer in the Middle

    Precious Lord,

    Oh, for a heart that seeks You—not merely for what You might give, but because You are worthy of being sought.

    Teach me to come before You without demanding instant relief. My testimony is not simply that I had a problem, prayed, and You delivered me. That is a wonderful testimony, but it is not the whole testimony. The deeper testimony is that while the trial remained, I remained with You.

    Although every torment and sorrow will one day be laid down, even now I will rejoice in the Lord. I will be glad in God my Savior.

    Though I lose my job—yes, Lord.
    Though cancer enters the room—yes, Lord.
    Though my marriage trembles or my finances collapse—still, yes, Lord.

    This does not mean that I call suffering good or pretend that it does not hurt. It means that I will not allow my circumstances to define Your goodness. Enlarge my vision of Christ until I understand that the transformation is not always taking place around me. It is taking place within me.

    Build patience in the very place where my impatience cries out. Teach me to wait without believing that I have been forgotten. I will seek You. I will lean into my faith and trust Your heart when I cannot see Your hand.

    Let my prayer rise like incense before You. May You be pleased with the offering of a heart that remains before You—still seeking and still saying yes.

    And, Lord, as I wait before You, I bring those who are in the middle of hard and painful circumstances. I pray for those whose unwise decisions have brought them into trouble, and for those who simply found themselves in the wrong place at the wrong time. Shame has diminished them. Self-doubt has entered their hearts, and they can no longer see themselves clearly.

    I pray for those who have lost much and for those who can feel something precious slipping away. I pray for those who are caught in the middle, where there is no easy way forward and no safe way back.

    Holy Spirit, make a way for those for whom I pray.

    Come to those who long to escape pornography but cannot find their way out. Break through the secrecy and shame. Come near to those who are considering harming themselves or someone else. Interrupt the darkness, precious Lord. Place a steady hand upon the wavering heart and bring someone trustworthy alongside them.

    Open the eyes of those whose world has crumbled and who believe that there is no way out. Reveal the path they cannot yet see. Let Your light enter the place where despair has spoken its final word and declare that the story is not over.

    And while we wait for circumstances to change, change us. While we wait for the door to open, keep our hearts open to You. Let this be our testimony: the darkness did not silence our praise, the waiting did not destroy our faith, and the trial did not remove You from the center of our lives.

    The miracle is not only that You will bring us out. The miracle is that You meet us here.

    Here in the middle, we say yes.

    Amen.

  • What did You feel, loving Heavenly Father, as You spoke—as You sang—the stars and galaxies into full swing?

    You did not scatter a few pebbles into the darkness and call it good. You drew the substance of creation from mysteries beyond our knowing. Then You exhaled, and there arose a sonorous symphony—a holy cacophony of love and light.

    With the touch of a sculptor, You shaped depth and form. You wove all things together while preserving the wonder of every minute detail. Nothing was overlooked. Nothing was carelessly placed. Creation bore the imprint of Your love upon its entirety.

    Time was nothing.

    All creation rested beneath one glorious tenuto stretched across the immensity. No one stirred. Nothing quivered within the holy expectation of what would come next.

    From which direction would it come?

    From above, with expanse and heavens? Or from below, with earth and sea—things separating and then joining, mingling and refreshing?

    From when did it come, and when shall it end—if ever?

    Great God, You hovered over it all. You moved between form and air, diving deep and soaring high. Then, with the smallest movement of Your finger, galaxies burst into being for Your pleasure and renown.

    And then the spark of an idea sent a quiver through all the heavens.

    Your flight stopped. The undulations of creation became still as all things watched the God of creation stoop down, cup the soil in His hands, and breathe one long, loving breath into it.

    And You formed me.

    All love and destiny were carried within that long exhale, mingling with the synapses and sinews of the flesh taking form.

    Who am I that You should think of me?

    I am Your creation, and You love me. You have always loved me, and into eternity Your love will shine upon me.

    I bear Your image.
    I live by Your breath.

    My heart belongs to You, and You have given Yourself to me. You have bound me to Yourself in love. I am held within Your will, and You are forever my God.

    And so I bring You an offering of praise—the incense of a heart longing for connection and finding You in the cool of the evening.

    Here is fellowship between the Creator and the created.

    There are no walls and no hindrances. You know me, and I am learning to know You.

    This is my offering to You tonight, even as I sense the chasm that has widened across the ages. Still, You reach toward me. You are ever present, calling me and gently wooing me, longing for fellowship once again.

    I say yes, dear Father.

    You call, and I hear You.

    I say yes tonight as the sleep of my body opens a door within my spirit. Take me into Your arms and guide me. Quiet every disturbance within me. Open my sleep-filled mind so that I may know You more deeply and begin to grasp the simple intricacies of Your heart.

    You are my Creator and Father, my merciful Savior and ever-present Lord.

    Lord of lords and King of kings.

    Amen.

  • Monday Evening Prayer

    Dear Lord,

    I am so very tired today. My body feels the cost of waking early and facing so many emotionally charged things. Not least among them is my own propensity to sin—and my tendency to treat it as though it were no great matter because everyone feels and contemplates such things.

    I feel the weight of the glaring inconsistencies in my life. On the one hand, I am utterly captivated by this call to rediscover repentance in the life of a believer—in my own life. Yet even as I think, speak, and write about repentance, I find myself lukewarm.

    So I ask You again: never stop meeting me here, at the crossroads of my humanity and the spirit You have awakened within me. Open my eyes again to my desperate need for a Savior.

    Come and save me.

    Save me from the lukewarm place in which I find myself, even while I remain occupied with many things—important things, perhaps even good things. Save me from mistaking activity for faithfulness, thought for obedience, and spiritual language for spiritual life.

    Do not allow my failures to drive me away from You. Let them drive me toward You. I do not want merely to write about returning. I want to return. I do not want merely to understand repentance. I want to repent.

    Meet me here once again, Lord. Receive this tired, divided, inconsistent heart. Cleanse it, steady it, and turn it toward You.

    Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner.

    Amen.

  • Wednesday Night Prayer

    Heavenly Father—

    I may call You Father.

    My earthly father was absent through much of my childhood. You see the space in my heart where a father should have been. You know the silence, the distance, the questions, and the longing that grew there. Yet I call You Father, and You want me to call You Father.

    You do not hold me at a distance until I have learned to obey perfectly. You do not withdraw when I fail to look as I think You would have me look, when I say what I should not say, or when I regard myself in ways that bring shame upon Your work of grace within me.

    You see me, and You know me.

    While I was still within my mother, You knew me. Before I knew how to call, You were calling me. Before I knew my own name, You had prepared a new name for me. You call me by that name now, and I answer.

    Teach me to answer yes when the world insists that You are absent.

    Teach me to say yes when the darkness tells me that You have no love for me. Teach me to say:

    Yes, You are here.

    Yes, I am known.

    Yes, I am upheld by a loving God.

    Yes, I have been called by name.

    Yes, I belong to You.

    You have placed something within my heart that continually reminds me of You. You are near like my breath. Every cell of my body bears witness to the life You sustain. Every breath entering and leaving me testifies that the very foundation of my life is surrounded by Your presence and Your love.

    Where can I go from Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your presence?

    If I rise into the morning, You are there. If I descend into darkness, You are there. If I lose my way and sink into the mire and waste—the swirling nothing this world offers—You are there. You reach into the depths and lift me up and out of myself.

    Where can I go that You are not already present, receiving me?

    When the old emptiness speaks, teach my heart to answer:

    I have a Father.

    He sees me.

    He knows me.

    He has not abandoned me.

    You do more than fill the space left by an absent father. You reveal what fatherhood was always meant to be.

    Come to me now like the wind.

    Fill my sails and direct my life. I cannot command the wind, but I can raise the sail. Teach me to surrender to the movement of Your Spirit. Carry me where obedience leads, even when I cannot see the shore.

    And I pray tonight for those who have lost their way.

    I pray for those whose sails have been torn and battered by the journey. I pray for those who no longer have sails, who have stopped expecting the wind, or who have traded their sails for bread that has become stale and for drink that cannot quench their thirst.

    Find them, Father.

    Sit beside those who no longer know how to move. Give bread to the hungry and living water to the thirsty. Bring new cloth to those whose sails hang in ruins. Restore within them the courage to believe that Your wind may still rise.

    Breathe upon us again.

    Lift what has fallen.

    Mend what has torn.

    Reorient what has drifted.

    Awaken what has grown numb.

    Call home those who have wandered far.

    When Your wind begins to rise, teach us to answer—not with great promises of our own strength, but with one quiet, trusting word:

    Yes.

    Yes, Father, You are here.

    Yes, Father, I am known.

    Yes, Father, I am Yours.

    Yes, Father, fill my sails.

    Yes, Father, bring us home.

    Let every breath become another quiet yes to Your fatherly love.

    Before I looked for You, You knew me. Before I called, You were near. Before I learned to say “Father,” You had already set Your love upon me.

    Abba, Father, I belong to You.

    Amen.

  • Heavenly Father,

    Tonight I pray for those lying awake in hospital beds, waiting for test results. Be near to them in the long hours of uncertainty. Quiet their fear, steady their hearts, and let them know that they are not alone.

    I pray for those in prison who hope they may sleep tonight, yet know they will awaken to a life of paying for wrong decisions. Meet them with truth and mercy. Let remorse become repentance, and repentance become the beginning of a new life. Remind them that no locked door can keep Your presence away.

    I pray for those who, through no fault of their own, must live in vast refugee camps—far from home, surrounded by uncertainty, carrying memories of what they have lost. Protect the vulnerable. Provide food, shelter, friendship, and a safe path forward. Preserve their dignity and keep hope alive within them.

    I pray for ambulance drivers, firefighters, police officers, medical workers, and first responders who must be ready at any moment tonight to enter another person’s trouble. Give them alert minds, steady hands, wise judgment, and compassionate hearts. Bring them safely home when their work is finished.

    Bless all those who keep the night shift: those who watch, heal, clean, guard, drive, comfort, and remain awake while others sleep.

    You keep the night watch as well, Father.

    Guard our souls tonight as we lie down to rest. Keep harm and danger far from our doors. Command Your angels concerning our families and friends; watch over them, defend them, and surround them with Your care.

    In Your presence there is security.

    In Your presence there is deep joy.

    In Your presence the restless soul may finally become still.

    We know that we have a long way to go as we grow into the character and likeness of Christ. Yet we do not rest tonight in our own perfection. We rest in Your mercy.

    Holy Spirit, come. Remind us of our Saviour and of every promise He has given us. Wrap us securely in Your presence, so that we may know that our sins are forgiven, our lives are held, and our souls may be at rest.

    Watch over those who cannot sleep.

    Awaken hope in those who have lost it.

    Stand beside those who are afraid.

    Strengthen those who serve.

    Shelter those who have no home.

    Receive those who call upon Your name.

    And for those of us who close our eyes tonight, give us the quiet confidence of the secure seeker:

    You are here.

    We are known.

    We are forgiven.

    We are upheld.

    We belong to You.

    You never leave Your watch.

    Into Your hands, Father, we entrust ourselves and all those for whom we have prayed.

    Amen.

  • How Can We Sing

    Dear Heavenly Father,

    How can we sing when we remember Zion—when we remember how it once was between you and your people here? How can we sing your song in what now feels like a foreign land?

    Our harps hang upon the willows. The songs remain within us, but our hearts have grown heavy and our voices uncertain. We remember seasons when your presence seemed near, when prayer came readily and praise rose without effort. Now we ask where we went astray and how we travelled so far without noticing the distance.

    How could we have been carried by you, loved by you, and protected by you, yet forget it all when the day of testing came? Trouble distorted our memory. We remembered the danger but forgot our Deliverer. We remembered our hunger but forgot the One who fed us. We remembered the wilderness but forgot the pillar of cloud and fire.

    We hid because we were ashamed of what we had become. Yet instead of bringing our shame into your light, we built altars around it. We rehearsed our harmless prayers and mistook their familiar sound for worship. Together we formed one mighty chorus, but beneath all our words was the terrible confession:

    We have forgotten you, O great Creator.

    We have partaken of strange aromas and concoctions. We have allowed ourselves to be led away by whatever pleased our senses or promised immediate relief. We traded wonder for spectacle, worship for stimulation, and your presence for experiences we could manufacture and control. We filled the silence with noise because we feared what your loving gaze might reveal.

    Yet you came looking for us.

    Our forgetfulness did not erase your faithfulness. Even in the land that felt foreign, you did not abandon us. Even beside the rivers of exile, you remained the God of Zion. You were not imprisoned within the place where we first knew you, nor limited to the season when our faith felt strong.

    Holy Spirit, come with the breath of heaven. Come with that creative power which first moved over the face of the deep. Breathe upon what has become formless, dry, and empty within us. Create in us clean hearts. Rebuild us as temples—holy places in which you may once again dwell without rivalry.

    Give us the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness—not a praise that denies our grief or pretends that nothing has been lost, but a praise that remembers your faithfulness within the loss. Let our first song be trembling if it must be. Let it rise through tears. Receive the broken note, the unfinished prayer, and the quiet yes of the heart that is turning home.

    Come especially for those who lie beside the road, exhausted by all the gyrations and spectacles we have devised to escape your all-loving gaze. Some are weary from performance. Some have been wounded by religion. Some were deceived by promises of an easy and abundant life and did not know what to do when suffering came. Some can no longer distinguish your voice from all the noise made in your name.

    Let them hear no condemnation in your approach. Let them see the Good Samaritan bending down, the Shepherd lifting the exhausted sheep, and the Father running toward the child who believed the road home had become too long.

    You came looking for us.

    Now from every corner and every nation, the song of the redeemed begins to rise. See us coming—not as those who never wandered, but as those whom you sought and found. See us coming, washed in the blood of the Lamb. Though our sins were as scarlet, you have made them white as wool.

    Gather us from every nation and every hiding place. Strip away our rehearsed respectability. Silence the spectacle. Restore our memory, restore our praise, and restore us to yourself.

    Teach us to sing again—not because everything has already been repaired, but because you are still worthy. Turn our faces toward the Lamb and join our trembling voices into one mighty chorus.

    This is the song of the redeemed:

    We wandered, but you sought us.

    We hid, but you called us.

    We were ashamed, but you covered us.

    We were wounded, but you carried us.

    We had forgotten you, but you never forgot us.

    Holy Spirit, breathe upon us once again. Make us your dwelling place, your holy people, and your song in this foreign land.

    Amen.

  • I thank You, Great God, for never asking me to stop feeling. You know how often my feelings and my faith have seemed to be at odds with one another. Yet You made me a feeler. I have always felt You near.

    I know that You are near—but thank You for allowing me to feel it. I need that. You know me.

    Thank You for loving me. I know that You love me, but what an indescribable relief it is to feel Your love toward me.

    Holy Spirit, continue to confirm in my heart all that God is doing in my life. Remind me of the promises placed in Your Word—promises that reveal what a faithful, purposeful, and astonishing God we serve. But please, always allow me to feel, to sense, to be moved, and to receive all that You have promised as beautiful, fulfilling, pleasurable, and warm.

    Yes, Father—it is warm where You are.

    I long for Your presence. I am not indifferent to Your presence. I know that Your Word says You are here, but still I long for You—as the deer longs for streams of water, so my soul longs for You.

    I pray for a wave of feeling to sweep across Iceland: a wave of conviction, a wave of remembrance, and a wave of love that defies explanation.

    You created us with this longing, Father, and we have made a royal mess of it. We do not understand what we long for, and we have an enemy who is more than willing to confuse us about our calling and about Your never-ending love.

    Reach toward us tonight in Your compassion. Wake us in the darkness and shake us from our sleep.

    Holy Spirit of God, move among us. Stir the pot. Unsettle the little arrangements we have made with life. Come in Your tsunami of gentleness and give Your Church an inexplicable thirst for You—an unquenchable thirst for Your presence and for worship.

    Worship of a holy God.

    Worship of the Friend who stays closer than a brother.

    Call us to run—to run toward You with passion and desperate need. Let it begin deep within us: in our appetites, in our conversations, and in our solitude.

    Heavenly Father, become enough for us.

    Ignite again what has grown cold—what has become merely analytical, measurable, careful, and risk-free.

    Do it tonight.

    Do it first in me.

    Capture my heart once again, for Your glory, for Your Kingdom, and for the sake of Your name—the name of Jesus, before whom every knee will bow and every tongue confess.

    Begin with my knee.

    Begin with my tongue.

    Precious Savior, like an enormous volcano, reveal what has been burning beneath the surface all along: the immeasurable depth, the transforming power, and the everlasting strength of Your love.

    Through Jesus Christ, we pray.

    Amen.

  • Light and Love

    O God, my God,

    When was it that light first came to be?

    Before You created the sun, the moon, or any celestial body, You spoke—and there was light. Before You created eyes to see, You created that which could be seen.

    There was no point of reference, no familiar chain of cause and effect. There was only Your voice. When You spoke, darkness was revealed for the first time. Light entered creation because You desired it, and what had been hidden could hide no longer.

    O God, what can I say to this? How can I gather words sufficient to describe the meaning of Your voice?

    Human beings have ever, only known light . From the first moment our eyes opened, light was already here. We have always understood one thing by comparing it with another: light and darkness, day and night, what is revealed and what remains hidden.

    But You, loving God, needed no comparison. You knew the darkness before there was light by which to name it. You needed no eyes to see, no sun to expose, and no point of reference by which to understand. You spoke, and light came forth.

    Your voice did not merely break the silence, God. Your voice created the possibility of seeing.

    We read:

    “The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light;

    they that dwell in the land of the shadow of death,

    upon them hath the light shined.”

    God, I am one of those people. We are those – them.

    We dwell together beneath shadows that have become so familiar that we have learned to call them home. Darkness dwells not only within me. It surrounds communities, settles over generations, enters our habits, and shapes the little arrangements we make with life.

    But upon them the Light shines.

    Upon us the Light shines.

    Upon me the Light shines.

    It comes from beyond me, God. I cannot manufacture it within myself. I cannot reason my way into it, kindle it through effort, or command it to appear. Something outside me radiates. Someone outside me radiates.

    You shine upon me.

    Your Light rises and showers us. It surrounds me, covers me, and enters the hidden places of my life. It brings warmth where I have grown cold, knowledge where I have remained ignorant, and responsibility where I have made excuses.

    Your Light reveals, God.

    Your Light consoles.

    Your Light purges.

    Your Light disinfects.

    You expose the wound, yet You do not abandon the wounded. You uncover what has been concealed, cleanse what has become infected, and gently warm what has grown cold. Your Light comforts me, but it does not leave me unchanged.

    Once I have seen, loving God, I become responsible for what You have revealed. Once You have warmed me, I am called to carry that warmth. Once You have exposed the darkness, I can no longer say that I did not know.

    The Light separates.

    Come, loving God. Come, holy Creator and Redeemer. Come, Holy Spirit of God, who draws us to the Father, joins us to Christ, and brings into being what we could never accomplish for ourselves.

    Shine upon us, God.

    Shine into us.

    Shine to the marrow, into the deepest and most guarded places, until there is such clarity that I may never again say, “I do not see. I had never seen.”

    You have seen me, God. You have always seen me. Now give me the courage to see what You reveal.

    Separate within me the light from the darkness, truth from deception, holy longing from corrupted appetite, worship from habit, and obedience from good intention.

    Separate me unto Yourself, all merciful God.

    Create in me a holy temple, lovingly designed as Your dwelling place. Purge me. Cleanse me. Repair me. You are most welcome in every room I have kept closed, and consecrate it for Yourself.

    Do not merely shine upon me, dear God.

    Enter me.

    Remain with me.

    Dwell in me.

    Before I could search for You, Your Light searched for me. Before I could speak Your name, Your voice called me from the darkness. Before my eyes could see, You had already prepared the Light by which I would find my way home.

    I walked in darkness.

    Upon me the Light has shone.

    I say yes, 1000 times, to your light.

    Now, loving God, separate me unto Yourself and make my life a dwelling place for Your glory.

    Amen.

  • We were created in love and for the glory of God. Our hearts were made to face him. We were meant to receive his love and let it shape how we treat others.

    The Fall changed our direction.

    Human life became marked by sin and woundedness. We sin when our hearts turn away from God and bend inward toward ourselves. We are wounded because we live among other wounded people. We experience rejection and betrayal. What we have done and what has been done to us can become tangled together within the heart.

    This difference matters.

    Not every wound is a sin. Yet our wounds can shape the way we respond to God. A person who has been rejected may expect God to reject him. Someone who has been ignored may find it difficult to believe that God hears him.

    Wounds can also shape the way we protect ourselves. We may become angry or withdraw from others. The wound does not excuse a sinful response, but repentance should not ignore the pain from which that response may have grown.

    Christ comes to forgive what is sinful and heal what is wounded.

    This is where the Litany of the Wounded Heart can prepare us for repentance. It brings the hidden heart into the light:

    Jesus, I offer you my heart with all its suffering.

    Jesus, I offer you my heart with all its fear.

    With these words, I begin to open myself to God. I no longer hide the wounded parts of my heart, and I do not allow them to define me. I place before Jesus both the love within me and the places where love has failed.

    This is already the beginning of repentance because repentance begins with truth. I allow myself to be seen as I am by the God who already knows me and still loves me.

    Repentance does not restore God’s love, as though he stopped loving me when I wandered. Repentance restores my direction toward him. God does not need to be persuaded to receive me. I need to turn and discover that he is already facing me.

    The way I stand before God matters. I may come to him hiding and defending myself, or I may come with an open heart. The litany helps me stand honestly before Christ and trust that I am safe in his care.

    Where I look also matters. Sin turns my attention inward or draws it toward things that cannot give life. The litany turns my eyes back toward Jesus:

    Jesus, my hope.

    Jesus, the comforter of my sorrow.

    Repentance also changes the direction of my will. It does not end when I recognize my wound or feel comforted. Christ turns my heart so that I may learn to love again.

    My prayer is not simply:

    I am wounded. Make me feel better.

    My prayer becomes:

    I am wounded, and I have wandered. Heal what has been hurt and forgive what has become sinful. Turn my heart back toward you.

    The mercy I seek is not condemnation, but neither is it permission to remain unchanged. Mercy brings the truth into the presence of love. It allows me to admit what I have suffered and what I have become without falling into despair.

    The purpose is transformation:

    Lord, make me more like you.

    Healing and repentance meet here. Christ does not heal me only so that I can feel better about myself. He heals me so that I may become free to love.

    Christ does not call me to repent so that I will remain trapped in guilt over the past. He turns me so that I may again live the life for which I was created.

    Repentance is the grace of returning. My heart is often pulled away from God, so I must continue to answer his invitation to come home.

    Each return is another quiet yes:

    Yes, Lord, you may see my wounded heart.

    Yes, Lord, heal me and turn me back toward you.

    This is the posture of repentance. I stand honestly before the God who loves me. I allow him to heal my wounds, forgive my sins, and restore my heart to its true direction—toward his love and glory